| Thursday, May 21, 2009 |
| Distant |
Is the word. I cannot express how I feel right now. It's a mixture of being informed and yet being silent about it.
To those who might not know already, I have another big challenge for the year, added to the already big challenge of graduation.
Because of this predicament, I have to give up many things, which sometimes lead me to being so grumpy and poor. Haha. Poor's the word.
Good news is I found a new habit, seeing my mobility being restricted. Studying. or at least trying to. Making myself sit on the table, attempting 30 minutes then drool for another 10 is quite a feat. And I will get better. Slowly but surely.
First an appointment to get better. A promise to get better. A resolution to get better.
Sorry if I have offended anyone in particular over the past months. Really my mind has always this underlying thought that I cannot express because I don't want sympathy and if I am not truthful with you, I will give you a weird vibe then I rather stay distant. Things have been weird already with my end and I rather not burden yours.
I know the words. I told you so. And I should have could have. But I didn't. Regret. Biggest regret ever. And going to stay that way. No other regrets. |
| posted by WnE @ 3:07 PM |
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