| Saturday, May 30, 2009 |
| Just randoms. |
Don't want to try and make everyone happy anymore. Happiness is hard to find these days, with all the workstress pilling up.
And I almost died yesterday. No kidding. Choked on a rubbery squid. Gah. Was struggling to breathe. I did not make a big fuss as it happened during a birthday dinner so nobody (cept for the poor lady in the toilet) knew until much later.
I was thinking to myself, this is not my time is it?. I cannot just go off like this! Death by choking. :P
I guess the greater power answered me when I suddenly magically unchoke myself and yucky as it may sound, shallowed the thingamagit. Goodness. |
| posted by WnE @ 9:02 AM |
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| Thursday, May 21, 2009 |
| Distant |
Is the word. I cannot express how I feel right now. It's a mixture of being informed and yet being silent about it.
To those who might not know already, I have another big challenge for the year, added to the already big challenge of graduation.
Because of this predicament, I have to give up many things, which sometimes lead me to being so grumpy and poor. Haha. Poor's the word.
Good news is I found a new habit, seeing my mobility being restricted. Studying. or at least trying to. Making myself sit on the table, attempting 30 minutes then drool for another 10 is quite a feat. And I will get better. Slowly but surely.
First an appointment to get better. A promise to get better. A resolution to get better.
Sorry if I have offended anyone in particular over the past months. Really my mind has always this underlying thought that I cannot express because I don't want sympathy and if I am not truthful with you, I will give you a weird vibe then I rather stay distant. Things have been weird already with my end and I rather not burden yours.
I know the words. I told you so. And I should have could have. But I didn't. Regret. Biggest regret ever. And going to stay that way. No other regrets. |
| posted by WnE @ 3:07 PM |
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| Tuesday, May 12, 2009 |
| LBD |
won 3rd. :)
love me girls.
and busn1002 assignment part 1 submited. weeeeee~!
now part 2, and 2 ctf ASSes. walau.
at the meantime, pcd in one weeks time. and watching angels and demons on thurs. cant wait cant wait.
thats all for now.
and now i know why ppl say 3rd year actuarial is suicidal times. not that i want to, but im sure most ppl feel like strangling themselves now. :D |
| posted by WnE @ 4:17 PM |
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| Wednesday, May 06, 2009 |
| Drama |
-tic week.
heaps of things happening. some only can be hushed. loads of uncertainty.
one thing is certain though. craziness pilling up.
practice practice. will this be my last dance for the year? i did promise that i would rest and recuperate. and if little black dress wins, it would be that i end on a high note.
14 may 14 may. the day i will learn my fate. |
| posted by WnE @ 8:59 PM |
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| Sunday, May 03, 2009 |
| Didier and Marcus want me to update. |
nah. :P
nolah. so busy leh. got 3 assignments. avenue of stars. ielts. anu dance. and girls basketball training. seriously packed. >.< that i have to give up on social outings and clubbing nights. which were staples last year.
but good news is mid semesters and assignment results are better than what I expected. so yeah, fewer social gatherings are a good thing.
currently deciding whether i should jump off a plane in july. gahhh. memang very chicken. and heights are what I call my 1st ''physical'' fear. physical being things like height, lizards, cockroaches etc. the ultimate winner is still loneliness. i never wanna be alone. i feel insecure being alone, and i don't know why some people just choose to be lonesome. i think i will go crazy.
i am going very off track with this. lols.
that's all the ramblings i have. ciao! |
| posted by WnE @ 10:25 AM |
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