*I love this part right here*: November 2009

Monday, November 30, 2009

GRADUATION!

THANK YOU GOD for the blessings.
THANK YOU to my parents for always being there when I needed them.
THANK YOU to my dear sister Ellen who stayed back in Canberra to see me graduate and relentlessly support me throughout the ordeal.
THANK YOU to Lyon whom has inspired me to push further and provide endless motivation and hope.
THANK YOU friends from all around the globe for all the encouragement and belief in me.

I seriously was contemplating Plan B. I prepared myself for it. For the possibility of calamity. Woke up today at 8.40am feeling like I wanted to die. It was too early as results would only be out from 9am onwards. I waited. At the bed. How come no book I've read or website I went to, ever taught you how to face suspense. And harsh reality.

ISIS crashed at 9.10am, our first attempt. Goodness! Results were not published yet. Then I panicked and decided I should take my mind off. I watched Monk. At 9.50am, I was numb. Whatever will be, will be I told myself. I started dressing up in case I would need to meet any lecturer after this. Then Lyon tried ISIS again. He looked at the screen, his face was of worry and confusion. This was it. I failed? Then he said: Let me check again. Urgh. The suspense! In his soft voices, he then muttered. You are graduating.

I started crying. Because since Friday the 13th November, the thought of failing was lingering behind my head. I did not want to make ''farewell'' plans because of the possible eventuality that I may stick around longer than I hope. But I got around the fear, and lived as if I were to fail. And make notes on how to cope with it in the future. I did not want to pack cuz I didn't know what to pack. I lived as if my friends were leaving and that I should spend as much time with them as possible. With Lyon as well. I thought I was mentally prepared, but really nothing can prepare you when facing the truth.

And there I was, sobbing my worries out. The stupid nightmares and worries. All vanished into thin air.

HD HD D CR.

The best results I could ask for. The best results I have had for actuarial subjects. Two HDs for the electives I thought I was going to get credit for as both papers fell on the same exam day, which was the Friday the 13th, and I assumed my performance would fall short due to the circumstances. Yay for bad omen becoming good. :)

D for AT. OMGGG!!!!!!!! I was so elated. And thankful to Lyon whom have helped me tremendously with this subject. Most surprising was CT. A credit. The subject that haunted me for 18 days. I was happy that I passed, but credit was unexpected.

And I get to keep my distinction average.

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After having to go through a whole lot of ups and downs this year, THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

I will not take this for granted. This is only the beginning of a long journey ahead. But a good stepping stone nevertheless.

And I'm thankful that my friends whom have checked their results are graduating too. Very very thankful that I could graduate with them.

Now off to cleaning up, buying a graduation dress and possibly another trip? :)

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Tracks

I'm so loving reviewing albums.

After returning back to Canberra from Whitsundays, I have been having post seasickness. Then spicy food tummyache yesterday. Hence been staying at home recuperating LOL. What do you do when your home? review albums!

Lady Gaga's fame monster is fking awesome. i love telephone the duet with beyonce, and speechless. awesome shit. and of course bad romance. love the video. such a genius!

And going through blueprint 3 now, jay z's new album. empire state of mind absolutely genius! love alicia keys in that.

And adam lambert. hmmm controversialnya orangni. the songs are quite repetitive and predictable though urgh. but i think all the idols debut are like that. cept david cook. his was awesome and original. anyway. i love fever (which is written by lady gaga herself!), broken open and time for miracles. and apparently time for miracles was featured in 2012. which i havent watched. cuz after attending the last lecture by Paul Kirwan, and his display on special effects, I seriously have high expectations when it comes to special effects shows. For instance, V the new series, is, to me so fake. Like I could imagine a green screen whenever I look at it. But still watching it cuz there isnt better things to do LOL. And I tried watching GI Joe still the same! OMG man. I feel that special effects now has to be flawless for me to enjoy it cuz I would be scrutinizing them the whole movie through.

Okay this is so random but really please go do yourself a favour and download those songs I've mentioned. Awesome tracks :)

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Saturday, November 07, 2009

STRESS

likee sometimes i feel that i have done enough. but its not true. so i crawled back to the table and do 4 5 more times of the same questions. grrrrrrrr. made more careless mistakes because subconsciously you dont give a damn anymore since you feel you have already mastered this question. dilemmaaaaaaa.

well the battle begins monday afternoon. i pray and hope for the best. i sincerely. hope. that. i. can. pull. through.

this sem has been the hardest ive worked in a while. social life has taken a backseat. so have my facials, cannot believe all the breakouts ive got, my exercise regime for all seating down, i have a belly dangness! I DONT USUALLY HAVE ONE! grrrr. and going whitsundays 5 days after exams means gym for 5 days straight to get it all back. but thats beside the point. all i ask and pray for is for me to perform as well as i can on normal circumstances, on normal grounds. i know i suck at exams. the exam pressure gets to me. and history repeats itself. my trials better than finals etc. etc. so please God let all that bear fruit. please please please. pleaseeee.

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Thursday, November 05, 2009

growing up.

I will revive this.

NYAAHHAHAH. said this so many times adi. but I will do after i balik msia. when i got free internet.

and i watched 15malaysia. you know lah how unilodge is. 3 sen per mb. hence i kiamsap didnt dl. thank you dc for having it and really its such a blast watching the shorts. awesome stuff. and makes going home not toooo bad. i hope.

gah im going to miss so many things about here. the easy access to gigs and theatre. and all me contacts from msia are in overseas studying, so going back wouldnt be the same. sigh. crazy how time flies. crazy crazy crazy.

then going back. interviews. job hunts. LIMBO! inside joke.

sighhhh. growing up.

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